THIS IS SO INCREDIBLY OFFENSIVE ON SO MANY LEVELS
I love it...:)
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
I WISH( or - I HAVE CROSSED MYSELF IN ANGER )
The next dog I get I'm going to train him or her to scare children...not to bite them or anything , just menace them on command.
Let me explain...
I have these neighbors who have a son my age only he's a bigger loser than me.He had kids who ended up being raised by his parents because he was in jail or off being a crack head or whatever.They grew up to have kids who are being raised by the now great grandparents. (I've lived here for a LONG time.)
These kids are fucking feral and they are relegated to the yard on a daily basis for hours at a time where they scream and yell and howl and basically make our lives miserable.There is virtually no adult supervision.
I have been biting my tongue because for a period of time our band tormented them with our own version of screaming and yelling and howling and they were cool with it.
But enough is fucking enough.
Tonight the children were in a truck in the driveway yelling and screaming and honking the horn...nary an "adult" to be seen.
I lost it.
I went outside and yelled at the top of my lungs- "HEY!That's ENOUGH...CHILL the FUCK OUT!"
They just honked the horn some more.A clear indication that the adults in their lives are worthless when it comes to limits...so I followed that up with "I'm serious you FUCKING BRATS!"
And lo and behold they complied...You see , when the adults do intervene with these monkeys it's in the form of profanity , verbal abuse and threats...we've heard it-many times over.
So that's why I want a menacing on command dog...one who bites only when I tell them to...
The next dog I get I'm going to train him or her to scare children...not to bite them or anything , just menace them on command.
Let me explain...
I have these neighbors who have a son my age only he's a bigger loser than me.He had kids who ended up being raised by his parents because he was in jail or off being a crack head or whatever.They grew up to have kids who are being raised by the now great grandparents. (I've lived here for a LONG time.)
These kids are fucking feral and they are relegated to the yard on a daily basis for hours at a time where they scream and yell and howl and basically make our lives miserable.There is virtually no adult supervision.
I have been biting my tongue because for a period of time our band tormented them with our own version of screaming and yelling and howling and they were cool with it.
But enough is fucking enough.
Tonight the children were in a truck in the driveway yelling and screaming and honking the horn...nary an "adult" to be seen.
I lost it.
I went outside and yelled at the top of my lungs- "HEY!That's ENOUGH...CHILL the FUCK OUT!"
They just honked the horn some more.A clear indication that the adults in their lives are worthless when it comes to limits...so I followed that up with "I'm serious you FUCKING BRATS!"
And lo and behold they complied...You see , when the adults do intervene with these monkeys it's in the form of profanity , verbal abuse and threats...we've heard it-many times over.
So that's why I want a menacing on command dog...one who bites only when I tell them to...
Friday, January 09, 2009
DEPTHMARKER STATS
We will celebrate 6 years of doing this thing on April 26th. But cluster maps gave us an early present by archiving our visitors by year. Here's where our readers came from from 01-10-08 to 01-10 09...
US - United States 4,911
GB - United Kingdom 501
CA - Canada 71
IE - Ireland 48
EU - Europe 24
FR - France 21
AU - Australia 14
GR - Greece 11
KY - Cayman Islands 9
DE - Germany 8
PH - Philippines 6
TR - Turkey 5
MX - Mexico 5
NL - Netherlands 5
NZ - New Zealand 4
ES - Spain 4
RO - Romania 4
IN - India 4
BR - Brazil 3
JP - Japan 3
SA - Saudi Arabia 3
RS - Serbia 2
KR - Korea, Republic of 2
IT - Italy 2
CH - Switzerland 2
HK - Hong Kong 2
CZ - Czech Republic 2
BE - Belgium 2
PY - Paraguay 2
VN - Vietnam 2
NI - Nicaragua 2
SI - Slovenia 2
TW - Taiwan 2
HU - Hungary 1
SE - Sweden 1
FI - Finland 1
LT - Lithuania 1
AT - Austria 1
PL - Poland 1
SK - Slovakia 1
LI - Liechtenstein 1
MT - Malta 1
MY - Malaysia 1
CI - Cote D'Ivoire 1
CR - Costa Rica 1
ID - Indonesia 1
AR - Argentina 1
ZA - South Africa 1
VE - Venezuela 1
PR - Puerto Rico 1
CN - China 1
PT - Portugal 1
MK - Macedonia 1
MA - Morocco 1
IL - Israel 1
BD - Bangladesh 1
PK - Pakistan 1
HR - Croatia 1
Pretty cool...
We will celebrate 6 years of doing this thing on April 26th. But cluster maps gave us an early present by archiving our visitors by year. Here's where our readers came from from 01-10-08 to 01-10 09...
US - United States 4,911
GB - United Kingdom 501
CA - Canada 71
IE - Ireland 48
EU - Europe 24
FR - France 21
AU - Australia 14
GR - Greece 11
KY - Cayman Islands 9
DE - Germany 8
PH - Philippines 6
TR - Turkey 5
MX - Mexico 5
NL - Netherlands 5
NZ - New Zealand 4
ES - Spain 4
RO - Romania 4
IN - India 4
BR - Brazil 3
JP - Japan 3
SA - Saudi Arabia 3
RS - Serbia 2
KR - Korea, Republic of 2
IT - Italy 2
CH - Switzerland 2
HK - Hong Kong 2
CZ - Czech Republic 2
BE - Belgium 2
PY - Paraguay 2
VN - Vietnam 2
NI - Nicaragua 2
SI - Slovenia 2
TW - Taiwan 2
HU - Hungary 1
SE - Sweden 1
FI - Finland 1
LT - Lithuania 1
AT - Austria 1
PL - Poland 1
SK - Slovakia 1
LI - Liechtenstein 1
MT - Malta 1
MY - Malaysia 1
CI - Cote D'Ivoire 1
CR - Costa Rica 1
ID - Indonesia 1
AR - Argentina 1
ZA - South Africa 1
VE - Venezuela 1
PR - Puerto Rico 1
CN - China 1
PT - Portugal 1
MK - Macedonia 1
MA - Morocco 1
IL - Israel 1
BD - Bangladesh 1
PK - Pakistan 1
HR - Croatia 1
Pretty cool...
Schrödinger's cat at 5:00 AM
I woke up this morning and found myself precariously balanced on the edge of the bed with the two dogs pressed against me as they occupied the space where I normally sleep. It was a little chilly in the room and what better way for a dog to stay warm than to sandwich itself between two heat producing humans? Judging from the pain in my back, I had been sleeping that way for quite some time and going back to sleep wasn't an option.
My thoughts drifted to the blood draw I had yesterday and how someone was going to be doing whatever it is that they do with blood to come up with those numbers and statistics that are supposed to tell a doctor what is going on with my body. And since the act of observation changes the property of what is being observed, I wondered how many times the property of that blood was going to change before the results ended up in my doctor's hands. Did it changed the while the phlebotomist watched it flow into the tube? Did it change when someone looked at it to put it in a machine? How about a machine's observation? Does that have any effect at all or is this just something that humans do? For that matter, is it just humans or does the observation of any conscious being affect the property of an item? And what defines a conscious being? Is there any reason to think a rock is less sentient than a human?
And then I thought, why am I thinking about this at at 5:00 AM in the morning? Which led to a much more important question. Why hadn't I been thinking like this at 5:00 AM in the morning? This sort of thinking is as natural as breathing to me, or rather, it used to be that was the norm instead of the exception. But I can't remember the last time that I had that sort of imaginative flight of fancy which is so much fun to do. I suspect it was a long, long time ago.
I was hoping this sudden burst of creative thinking meant that the "brain fog" was gone. Alas, upon arising and taking Rob to work, I discovered that problem is most definitely still there. There's nothing quite like doing half a dozen stupid things before breakfast.
Ah well, time to go find my car keys since I just noticed that it's my purse hanging on the key hook instead of the keys. You see, the dogs need to go out and I need those keys to unlock the back door, however, they are currently nowhere to be found. Gotta be here somewhere...
P.S. Although I pointed to stress as the most likely culprit for my current absent-mindedness, my doctor disagrees and thinks something else is the cause.
I woke up this morning and found myself precariously balanced on the edge of the bed with the two dogs pressed against me as they occupied the space where I normally sleep. It was a little chilly in the room and what better way for a dog to stay warm than to sandwich itself between two heat producing humans? Judging from the pain in my back, I had been sleeping that way for quite some time and going back to sleep wasn't an option.
My thoughts drifted to the blood draw I had yesterday and how someone was going to be doing whatever it is that they do with blood to come up with those numbers and statistics that are supposed to tell a doctor what is going on with my body. And since the act of observation changes the property of what is being observed, I wondered how many times the property of that blood was going to change before the results ended up in my doctor's hands. Did it changed the while the phlebotomist watched it flow into the tube? Did it change when someone looked at it to put it in a machine? How about a machine's observation? Does that have any effect at all or is this just something that humans do? For that matter, is it just humans or does the observation of any conscious being affect the property of an item? And what defines a conscious being? Is there any reason to think a rock is less sentient than a human?
And then I thought, why am I thinking about this at at 5:00 AM in the morning? Which led to a much more important question. Why hadn't I been thinking like this at 5:00 AM in the morning? This sort of thinking is as natural as breathing to me, or rather, it used to be that was the norm instead of the exception. But I can't remember the last time that I had that sort of imaginative flight of fancy which is so much fun to do. I suspect it was a long, long time ago.
I was hoping this sudden burst of creative thinking meant that the "brain fog" was gone. Alas, upon arising and taking Rob to work, I discovered that problem is most definitely still there. There's nothing quite like doing half a dozen stupid things before breakfast.
Ah well, time to go find my car keys since I just noticed that it's my purse hanging on the key hook instead of the keys. You see, the dogs need to go out and I need those keys to unlock the back door, however, they are currently nowhere to be found. Gotta be here somewhere...
P.S. Although I pointed to stress as the most likely culprit for my current absent-mindedness, my doctor disagrees and thinks something else is the cause.
Thursday, January 08, 2009
ENCHEES!
I made enchiladas tonight...two small batches to accommodate our particular preferences...
These are sliced roast beef with guisada sauce and sour cream with Monterrey jack cheese...
And for Annabelle...
Jack and cheddar cheese with red sauce.
Tasty.
I did lay in lighting today...lots of ladder time but I wore different boots so it wasn't so bad on the feet.Students are already moving in to the upper floor dorm rooms...it's a bit disconcerting to see these kids wandering around an active construction site , but who am I to say , right?
I made enchiladas tonight...two small batches to accommodate our particular preferences...
These are sliced roast beef with guisada sauce and sour cream with Monterrey jack cheese...
And for Annabelle...
Jack and cheddar cheese with red sauce.
Tasty.
I did lay in lighting today...lots of ladder time but I wore different boots so it wasn't so bad on the feet.Students are already moving in to the upper floor dorm rooms...it's a bit disconcerting to see these kids wandering around an active construction site , but who am I to say , right?
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
FIRST DAY BACK
I went back to work today and when it was over I was exhausted.I haven't been on my feet (or in boots for that matter) for 8 hours in over a week. The crew was glad to see me , and that experience always amazes me..."they missed me , wow".
After the handshakes and the questions it was off to a change order project that involved lots of high work and ladder time...throw me right back into it.
The physical plant has changed a lot as well...where there was once dirt is now grass, the pavilion is full of pave stones.The changes were dramatic...this job is winding down.
For lunch I went to Flacos with Ricky Ricardo...Since I'm on soft foods I decided to try the menudo...big mistake.That stuff smells like shit but tastes good , but my brain could not over ride the shit smell...it is made from stomach lining after all...from the taste. I will NEVER eat that shit again...nor did I finish a third of that bowl of cow bowel...ugh.
Very nasty.
I spent most of the evening in bed with Annabelle and the doggies...I could get used to this.
And considering there is another round of lay offs slated for tomorrow it may be unemployment time...
I went back to work today and when it was over I was exhausted.I haven't been on my feet (or in boots for that matter) for 8 hours in over a week. The crew was glad to see me , and that experience always amazes me..."they missed me , wow".
After the handshakes and the questions it was off to a change order project that involved lots of high work and ladder time...throw me right back into it.
The physical plant has changed a lot as well...where there was once dirt is now grass, the pavilion is full of pave stones.The changes were dramatic...this job is winding down.
For lunch I went to Flacos with Ricky Ricardo...Since I'm on soft foods I decided to try the menudo...big mistake.That stuff smells like shit but tastes good , but my brain could not over ride the shit smell...it is made from stomach lining after all...from the taste. I will NEVER eat that shit again...nor did I finish a third of that bowl of cow bowel...ugh.
Very nasty.
I spent most of the evening in bed with Annabelle and the doggies...I could get used to this.
And considering there is another round of lay offs slated for tomorrow it may be unemployment time...
Onward through the Fog
Brain Fog, Fuzzy Thinking, Memory Loss - call it what you will, but so far it's been the most annoying aspect of whatever is going on with me. Multitasking used to be my specialty, but these days I have trouble doing just one thing, much less many things at once.
I'll give you an example. This morning I was going to make myself some scrambled eggs for breakfast. I got the eggs out of the refrigerator, lit the stove and set the butter in the pan to melt while I got a bowl out of the cabinet. I set the bowl on the counter and turned around to get the eggs (which were on the other counter next to the stove) and promptly cracked the eggs into the pan and made fried eggs instead. Now, I didn't consciously decide to make fried eggs, it just happened. Later, after the eggs were cooked and eaten, I headed back into the kitchen to wash the plate when I noticed the bowl on the counter and wondered why it was there. It took me a while, but I did eventually remember that I was going to make scrambled eggs. Of course, in this situation, it didn't matter where the eggs were fried or scrambled, it was still breakfast.
Something tells me there's a good metaphor in that story if I could only concentrate on it. But I can't so I think I'll go do whatever it is I was thinking about doing earlier... it involved something to do with the bedroom... laundry perhaps?
Brain Fog, Fuzzy Thinking, Memory Loss - call it what you will, but so far it's been the most annoying aspect of whatever is going on with me. Multitasking used to be my specialty, but these days I have trouble doing just one thing, much less many things at once.
I'll give you an example. This morning I was going to make myself some scrambled eggs for breakfast. I got the eggs out of the refrigerator, lit the stove and set the butter in the pan to melt while I got a bowl out of the cabinet. I set the bowl on the counter and turned around to get the eggs (which were on the other counter next to the stove) and promptly cracked the eggs into the pan and made fried eggs instead. Now, I didn't consciously decide to make fried eggs, it just happened. Later, after the eggs were cooked and eaten, I headed back into the kitchen to wash the plate when I noticed the bowl on the counter and wondered why it was there. It took me a while, but I did eventually remember that I was going to make scrambled eggs. Of course, in this situation, it didn't matter where the eggs were fried or scrambled, it was still breakfast.
Something tells me there's a good metaphor in that story if I could only concentrate on it. But I can't so I think I'll go do whatever it is I was thinking about doing earlier... it involved something to do with the bedroom... laundry perhaps?
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
SCORE
Since I've been off for more than a week I've been nosing around in the back room for some halloween pictures (that I haven't found ) but I found my harmonicas that have been missing for years and I found some video. Not the video I was looking for but video I forgot we even had.
First I found a video marked "Halloween '95" and it's us with the time bombs here at Clubspit central with the Boxers Diamond and Skeeter doing crowd control...they were funny like that.Skeeter was the stage bouncer and Diamond worked the crowd.
Then I found a video from "Halloween '94 at Mike and Denice's"...our first live performance ever.That's where we got our rug.
It's hard to imagine we have been making music together for 15 years , but we have.
A testimony to friendship more than anything else
Amazing stuff.
I will digitize this stuff as soon as I can and share it with you...
I go to bed with a smile on my face and a beating in my heart.
Since I've been off for more than a week I've been nosing around in the back room for some halloween pictures (that I haven't found ) but I found my harmonicas that have been missing for years and I found some video. Not the video I was looking for but video I forgot we even had.
First I found a video marked "Halloween '95" and it's us with the time bombs here at Clubspit central with the Boxers Diamond and Skeeter doing crowd control...they were funny like that.Skeeter was the stage bouncer and Diamond worked the crowd.
Then I found a video from "Halloween '94 at Mike and Denice's"...our first live performance ever.That's where we got our rug.
It's hard to imagine we have been making music together for 15 years , but we have.
A testimony to friendship more than anything else
Amazing stuff.
I will digitize this stuff as soon as I can and share it with you...
I go to bed with a smile on my face and a beating in my heart.
An interesting start to the new year
"Here comes your 19th nervous breakdown"
Okay, so I've never had even one nervous breakdown, but this last month I had to wonder if I was about to have my first. There's no denying that I have a job that's very stressful and that it gets even worse around the holidays. This year, I slowly lost my ability to manage that job in December. Multitasking became extremely difficult, I started forgetting things, I would confuse one companies policies with another, I failed to follow up on issues and last week I lost my ability to keep my cool on supervisor calls. For some reason, I wasn't able to do the things I was best at so last Monday I asked my boss for some time off to get myself together before something bad happened on a call. I only got an extra day and let me tell you, it wasn't enough. Last Friday was one of the worst days I have ever had at work and I managed to screw up quite a few calls. And the mental fog doesn't just exist at work, it happens at home as well. For example, I just grabbed a coffee filter in my attempt to make a cup of tea and well, the coffee filter is not used in any way to make a cup of tea around here. I know everyone does things like that on occasion, but for me recently, it's the sort of thing that happens very often in the course of just one day.
So maybe it's stress or maybe it's perimenopause (there are other signs and symptoms that point to that as the culprit) or maybe I have just lost my mind. Either way, I'm in quite the predicament since I have essentially lost my means of income because I will get fired if I continue to work in this condition. And folks it's not even the getting fired that concerns me, but the fact that the customers get screwed over even more when I mess up on a call and that's not good for anyone involved.
I'll be seeing a doctor, though I don't think it's going to do any good or provide any sort of quick fix. But I figure I might as well use my health insurance one last time because the moment I turn in my resignation or get fired, the insurance is gone. There's also the fact that answers and solutions to problems often come from where I least expect it so I'm going to go with the flow on this one. We'll see what happens... I think it's going to be a very interesting year.
"Here comes your 19th nervous breakdown"
Okay, so I've never had even one nervous breakdown, but this last month I had to wonder if I was about to have my first. There's no denying that I have a job that's very stressful and that it gets even worse around the holidays. This year, I slowly lost my ability to manage that job in December. Multitasking became extremely difficult, I started forgetting things, I would confuse one companies policies with another, I failed to follow up on issues and last week I lost my ability to keep my cool on supervisor calls. For some reason, I wasn't able to do the things I was best at so last Monday I asked my boss for some time off to get myself together before something bad happened on a call. I only got an extra day and let me tell you, it wasn't enough. Last Friday was one of the worst days I have ever had at work and I managed to screw up quite a few calls. And the mental fog doesn't just exist at work, it happens at home as well. For example, I just grabbed a coffee filter in my attempt to make a cup of tea and well, the coffee filter is not used in any way to make a cup of tea around here. I know everyone does things like that on occasion, but for me recently, it's the sort of thing that happens very often in the course of just one day.
So maybe it's stress or maybe it's perimenopause (there are other signs and symptoms that point to that as the culprit) or maybe I have just lost my mind. Either way, I'm in quite the predicament since I have essentially lost my means of income because I will get fired if I continue to work in this condition. And folks it's not even the getting fired that concerns me, but the fact that the customers get screwed over even more when I mess up on a call and that's not good for anyone involved.
I'll be seeing a doctor, though I don't think it's going to do any good or provide any sort of quick fix. But I figure I might as well use my health insurance one last time because the moment I turn in my resignation or get fired, the insurance is gone. There's also the fact that answers and solutions to problems often come from where I least expect it so I'm going to go with the flow on this one. We'll see what happens... I think it's going to be a very interesting year.
Monday, January 05, 2009
THIS IS REALLY GETTING FUCKING OLD
OK...so the pills were fun for a while , but now they just dull the pain and make me retarded. The antibiotics did their thing and my infection is gone.
So I call the oral surgeons office this morning and when they find out I'll be paying out of pocket give me a run down on the fees...way out of my range let me tell you.If they were trying to scare me off it worked.So I call the dentist I saw last week and all of a sudden he's got cold feet and refers me to a clinic with a sliding scale.
I remember when paying in cash was a plus...So I check this place out and find the following review on line...
The desk staff is very rude and condescending. They are not helpful and give incorrect and incomplete information on how to use their system and services. When I complained about the incomplete information, I was called a liar and told I missed an appt. for the day before. I didn’t’ have an appt and was trying to bring in a homeless man for an emergency visit for a severe toothache. I was told to be there by 7:30AM as that is when they take emergencies. However, when I got there I was told I need to be there at 6:30am she says and sign up as they only take the first five on the list as emergencies. I hope this wasn’t because the man I was helping is Caucasian and not Hispanic, but I am not convinced. Fortunately, Economy Dental stepped up and helped me with immediate and low cost dental service to a needy person. They were polite and respectful and gave me the information I needed.
Pros: I'm sure good service if they want to help you.
Cons: Don't be white.
Nice...So I called economy dental and I'm going to see them tomorrow morning. I'm glad the infection is resolved , but the pain has been almost unbearable if not for the pills and the anbesol.
In addition to that I have missed a week of work, I pulled the rest of my vacation fund to cover that loss of pay and the dentist bill , but I was planning on using that money for christmas for the grand kids...we'll pull it off somehow I'm sure.I'm gonna clean up our house drum set for Sean (it's better than anything we could buy him plus it has the karma).
Sometimes I just want to roll over and piss on myself like a dog who's been beat.
But you guys know me better than that.I'm just sayin'
OK...so the pills were fun for a while , but now they just dull the pain and make me retarded. The antibiotics did their thing and my infection is gone.
So I call the oral surgeons office this morning and when they find out I'll be paying out of pocket give me a run down on the fees...way out of my range let me tell you.If they were trying to scare me off it worked.So I call the dentist I saw last week and all of a sudden he's got cold feet and refers me to a clinic with a sliding scale.
I remember when paying in cash was a plus...So I check this place out and find the following review on line...
The desk staff is very rude and condescending. They are not helpful and give incorrect and incomplete information on how to use their system and services. When I complained about the incomplete information, I was called a liar and told I missed an appt. for the day before. I didn’t’ have an appt and was trying to bring in a homeless man for an emergency visit for a severe toothache. I was told to be there by 7:30AM as that is when they take emergencies. However, when I got there I was told I need to be there at 6:30am she says and sign up as they only take the first five on the list as emergencies. I hope this wasn’t because the man I was helping is Caucasian and not Hispanic, but I am not convinced. Fortunately, Economy Dental stepped up and helped me with immediate and low cost dental service to a needy person. They were polite and respectful and gave me the information I needed.
Pros: I'm sure good service if they want to help you.
Cons: Don't be white.
Nice...So I called economy dental and I'm going to see them tomorrow morning. I'm glad the infection is resolved , but the pain has been almost unbearable if not for the pills and the anbesol.
In addition to that I have missed a week of work, I pulled the rest of my vacation fund to cover that loss of pay and the dentist bill , but I was planning on using that money for christmas for the grand kids...we'll pull it off somehow I'm sure.I'm gonna clean up our house drum set for Sean (it's better than anything we could buy him plus it has the karma).
Sometimes I just want to roll over and piss on myself like a dog who's been beat.
But you guys know me better than that.I'm just sayin'
Sunday, January 04, 2009
ENGRAVER...
I have an engraver...and I did this to a perfectly helpless chrome zippo lighter...I got done with that first cross bone and said "fuck it".Annabelle says it's cute...I say otherwise.
Have I said I love the Band of Horses ? They rule. A patchwork of my life if there ever was one.
I have been a lot of things in my life and I have seen some amazing things - believe me.
But today was a killer...The other day LT dropped off a VCR tape of the baby shower.I thought we had a VCR around here somewhere, but I apparently shot it full of holes and tossed it out.They don't make them anymore...at the stores I went to anyway.Much to the amusement to the sales staff I asked if one existed and they looked at me like I asked for a unicorn.
But old friends come through.I called Al to give him my new number and asked "Do you by any chance have a VCR"? He said yes.And he gave it to me (as opposed to a lend) and he brought it to me.Man...I am lucky to have such good friends...
So...anyway-within the hour I had a brand new VCR with which to watch the tape.
And watch it I did...grand babies dancing around chewing on our mics-pounding on the drums...little rock stars.
I was hypnotized...grainy VCR memories...McKenzie on my lap playing my ASAT.
A kiss and a hug.
And this film plays on...people close to me coming in and out of the frame, my son...his wife...my band mates...my Annabelle.
Frozen in time.
It was a moment.
A moment in time dedicated to love.
Have I mentioned Band of Horses? Seriously...check them out.
I have an engraver...and I did this to a perfectly helpless chrome zippo lighter...I got done with that first cross bone and said "fuck it".Annabelle says it's cute...I say otherwise.Have I said I love the Band of Horses ? They rule. A patchwork of my life if there ever was one.
I have been a lot of things in my life and I have seen some amazing things - believe me.
But today was a killer...The other day LT dropped off a VCR tape of the baby shower.I thought we had a VCR around here somewhere, but I apparently shot it full of holes and tossed it out.They don't make them anymore...at the stores I went to anyway.Much to the amusement to the sales staff I asked if one existed and they looked at me like I asked for a unicorn.
But old friends come through.I called Al to give him my new number and asked "Do you by any chance have a VCR"? He said yes.And he gave it to me (as opposed to a lend) and he brought it to me.Man...I am lucky to have such good friends...
So...anyway-within the hour I had a brand new VCR with which to watch the tape.
And watch it I did...grand babies dancing around chewing on our mics-pounding on the drums...little rock stars.
I was hypnotized...grainy VCR memories...McKenzie on my lap playing my ASAT.
A kiss and a hug.
And this film plays on...people close to me coming in and out of the frame, my son...his wife...my band mates...my Annabelle.
Frozen in time.
It was a moment.
A moment in time dedicated to love.
Have I mentioned Band of Horses? Seriously...check them out.
Saturday, January 03, 2009
DIG LAZARUS DIG...
This is where I've been for a solid (almost) week , and they have been by my side the whole time.Except for the couple of days that Theo's hips hurt so bad he cried a lot and couldn't get on the bed.Even then he was at the foot or the side of the bed.
Bod commented on the time capsule picture , wondering when it was time to dig it up. I decided that it was time today. So I packed a shovel in the car and drove over there. The main building is an architect firm and the out buildings are leased out to other businesses. I haven't been on this property since they shut us down in '94.
I figured no one would be home , but there were some graphics designers there occupying the side of the duplex where my favorite primary kid stayed.I told him the story and showed him the picture.There was this stick protruding from the ground for no real reason and after we looked at the picture it appeared to be close to the spot where I was driving the shovel. Go ahead and dig they said.
I did...it wasn't the spot-or I didn't dig down deep enough.But as I was digging I was looking around and remembering those days, those kids, that team.
I shared some stories with those guys and directed them under the stairs in the main house to some graffiti my primary and I left there all those years ago in her safe place.
Maybe I did dig deep enough after all.
Somebody else should find that capsule...not me.
This is where I've been for a solid (almost) week , and they have been by my side the whole time.Except for the couple of days that Theo's hips hurt so bad he cried a lot and couldn't get on the bed.Even then he was at the foot or the side of the bed.Bod commented on the time capsule picture , wondering when it was time to dig it up. I decided that it was time today. So I packed a shovel in the car and drove over there. The main building is an architect firm and the out buildings are leased out to other businesses. I haven't been on this property since they shut us down in '94.
I figured no one would be home , but there were some graphics designers there occupying the side of the duplex where my favorite primary kid stayed.I told him the story and showed him the picture.There was this stick protruding from the ground for no real reason and after we looked at the picture it appeared to be close to the spot where I was driving the shovel. Go ahead and dig they said.
I did...it wasn't the spot-or I didn't dig down deep enough.But as I was digging I was looking around and remembering those days, those kids, that team.
I shared some stories with those guys and directed them under the stairs in the main house to some graffiti my primary and I left there all those years ago in her safe place.
Maybe I did dig deep enough after all.
Somebody else should find that capsule...not me.
Friday, January 02, 2009
RELAPSE
As is my habit , I felt better yesterday and assuming I was still young and bulletproof overdid it. I spent the entire day today in bed asleep with the dogs , who did not leave my side.( good friends them...)
And this evening has been much more slowly paced.
But I had to share these with you...
New Years party in 93 I think...Me and part of my "cadre of mental health professionals"...Yeah , you bet. Seriously , these two were good team members for very different reasons...I valued diversity.
And here we are a year later burying our time capsule when they shut our center down...yes I am wearing a tie and loafers.
I miss those guys...
As is my habit , I felt better yesterday and assuming I was still young and bulletproof overdid it. I spent the entire day today in bed asleep with the dogs , who did not leave my side.( good friends them...)
And this evening has been much more slowly paced.
But I had to share these with you...
New Years party in 93 I think...Me and part of my "cadre of mental health professionals"...Yeah , you bet. Seriously , these two were good team members for very different reasons...I valued diversity.
And here we are a year later burying our time capsule when they shut our center down...yes I am wearing a tie and loafers.I miss those guys...
Thursday, January 01, 2009
PIROGI'S !
You can tell I'm feeling better when I can drag my ass out of bed , bathe my stinky , greasy haired self , clean up the beard and go to the grocery not once but twice.Because I'm still kinda dingy from the pills and forgot the pie crusts.
I originally intended on making mini meat pies , or as the seen and be seen types around here call them "Aussie pies".
Please , I was eating meat pie before I was out of diapers.Anyway...the cupcake pan we had was shallower than I remember,so I opted for perogi's...baked in the roaster.
Ann raved about the crust (and she's a baker !)
THEN I TOOK A TRIP DOWN MEMORY LANE (WHILE THEY WERE BAKING)....
I was looking for some old Halloween pictures for a friend...no luck , but I found these golden oldies...enjoy.
Me and Annabelle at the Chuy's photo booth on Barton Springs right before the wedding...wow..
Our wedding party...
On our honeymoon in the Rio Grande National Forest in Colorado with Diamond and Cypress.
Wolves@th'door cover shoot for Teen Beat magazine! Just kidding , but damn...no wrinkles!
You can tell I'm feeling better when I can drag my ass out of bed , bathe my stinky , greasy haired self , clean up the beard and go to the grocery not once but twice.Because I'm still kinda dingy from the pills and forgot the pie crusts.I originally intended on making mini meat pies , or as the seen and be seen types around here call them "Aussie pies".
Please , I was eating meat pie before I was out of diapers.Anyway...the cupcake pan we had was shallower than I remember,so I opted for perogi's...baked in the roaster.
Ann raved about the crust (and she's a baker !)
THEN I TOOK A TRIP DOWN MEMORY LANE (WHILE THEY WERE BAKING)....
I was looking for some old Halloween pictures for a friend...no luck , but I found these golden oldies...enjoy.
Me and Annabelle at the Chuy's photo booth on Barton Springs right before the wedding...wow..
Our wedding party...
On our honeymoon in the Rio Grande National Forest in Colorado with Diamond and Cypress.
Wolves@th'door cover shoot for Teen Beat magazine! Just kidding , but damn...no wrinkles!
HAPPY NEW YEAR ?
No partying...carousing , or even silliness here at ClubSpit this time around.Just in bed with the dogs watching old Clint Eastwood westerns and CSI.If it wasn't for my deflicted mouth , it would have been very nice.
We got a bottle of champagne , but it sits unopened in the fridge. Another day...
Ann was feeling kind of yucky yesterday too and she spent a good portion of her day in the bed with us watching TV (?!)
The antibiotics seem to be working as I feel little to no "presence" of the infection.
Third tooth going left to right...that large black area around the top is where the bone used to be , the white area below surrounding the root is the infection.Nice , huh?
No partying...carousing , or even silliness here at ClubSpit this time around.Just in bed with the dogs watching old Clint Eastwood westerns and CSI.If it wasn't for my deflicted mouth , it would have been very nice.
We got a bottle of champagne , but it sits unopened in the fridge. Another day...
Ann was feeling kind of yucky yesterday too and she spent a good portion of her day in the bed with us watching TV (?!)
The antibiotics seem to be working as I feel little to no "presence" of the infection.
Third tooth going left to right...that large black area around the top is where the bone used to be , the white area below surrounding the root is the infection.Nice , huh?
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